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| 4D ultrasound of twins in womb |
OUR I-600A was mailed to USCIS (Immigration Services) on Friday. Once it is officially logged in the queue, we will wait for our appointment to have our biometrics taken (last set of federal fingerprints) and then Lord willing within the next 6 weeks from when they received it (should've been today) we will obtain our APPROVAL to adopt 2 precious children from the beautiful country of Ug*nda!!!!!
I still can't believe this is happening. There were SO many times in the last 9 months when I just didn't know if it would. I felt like I'd lost my mind with these desires that had been planted in my heart SO STRONGLY, and yet the tumultously turns of orphan ministry and just life changes in general made it seem like it was no where in the plan. I mean why would God give me this desire, keep it there after I prayed for Him to remove it (if by any chance it was an act of my flesh wanting to serve in a way that was not His plan alone for our family) and then crush me by making it an impossibility?? Well that's just it, God doesn't do that. He loves us. Yes, He planted those desires. Yes He is fulfilling the plans to bring those desires to action in His glorious plan. But YES, He said wait, and wait, and wait and I'm sure there is more waiting to come. Why? Because those are His mysterious ways...those ways that always make more sense, as the image of His hand so clearly emerges when we walk out of the other side of an act of obedience, or a storm in life, or a season of growing. It is all about His glory. It is all about keeping me and my husband utterly dependent on Him.
We aren't even to the tough parts of this process yet, and I already have a closer walk with the Lord because of it. I wish I had the words to express what it feels like to have the Lord be more to me, to give me increasing joy inspite of the painful silence of those around me. That doesn't mean it doesn't hurt all the same. But it doesn't rip me up and completely hijack my emotional state, as most things of this nature have in the past. I'm learning more and more what it feels like to let the Lord's approval be the only thing I seek. While I could sit here and whine about how much it breaks my heart that almost no one asks to see pictures of my children (no sonogram to speculate over), and no one says, "I just can't wait to have them home!" or "I'm so excited for you!" (like news of pregnancies past) ... none of that sympathy compares to what I really need from anyone reading this. That, my friend is prayer.
Pray for my children, my son (*) and my daughter (*). Pray for the fear, loss and confusion that they are going to experience as a part of this process that will ultimately be for their good, and blessing and to fulfill God's plan for their lives in the midst of a sinful world that has robbed them of His original plan for their families. Jeremiah 29:11. Yes, I am believing God to fulfill wonderful plans in our family and in the individual lives of all 5 of our children...but that doesn't mean that it isn't going to come without a price or without pain. There will be sacrifice required by all, and yes it will be required of those really too young to give their permission or even understanding of what's to come. And yet, I'm not sweating that, because how many of us took a poll from the children we had at the time before "trying" again to get pregnant? Adoption shouldn't make it any different. God is choosing to bless us with more children, how they get here doesn't matter. He knew them before He formed them in their mother's womb...and He knew they would be in our forever family.
Pray for the miracles that must take place in their precious little hearts and minds to be at peace in leaving the only life they've ever known. Please imagine what your 5 year old would say, if you were about to put them on a plane to go live with people who don't look like them, who don't talk like them, who are different in every way from the only security they've ever know in a loving orphan home of the last 2 years. We are not doing a grand "thing", we are not the rescuers, we are simply another tool in the hands of Jesus who showed us that practical needs must be met first before you can have any impact in sharing the gift of the Gospel. These children need a FAMILY, and we are a FAMILY. It's that simply. What God wants to do with our family beyond that, is His.
Thank you for reading this. Thank you even more for commenting. More than anything I covet your prayers.
I can not stop without sharing here on my blog, how eternally grateful I am to my precious new friend, Charli. I met Charli on our first trip to Ug*nda last summer. She is an amazing young woman who loves the Lord and has a personality and gifting that is absolutely CAPTIVATING. She is on another mission trip right now, to the home where my children are and to Home of Hope (an orphan home for children with severe special needs). Charli is the precious one who agreed to personally deliver and read the photobooks to my waiting son and daughter in Ug*nda. She is the one who will try to take in their faces, their hearts as they "see" their adoptive family for the first time. Only the Lord knows on what level they are even able to understand what adoption means at this point. As I type the very first child to ever be adopted from their orphan home, is just weeks away from completing the guardianship process in Ug*nda. Thank you Charli, for letting the Lord use you in such a powerful way to bless our family and to love and hold my children when I can't. I am praying for your team.








